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Bein a ho...
its like this. you don't know what you're doing with your life, and you try to find it. you make mistakes. yeah. everyone does that. most of those mistakes, if not all you will regret. when you're confused, don't listen to anyone but yourself, don't let anyone mess wit you cuz its those times when you're real vulnerable to outside forces, anything will sound good to you. there's always a catch. you gotta remember that. me, i just came downtown to get my tongue pierced, the next thing i know i got me a pimp and my daddy takes away all the money i get each day. its like when you're walking down that street a lot of things hit you at once. other ho's they be like its only a job you get paid ain't that the shit. hell no its more than that, its you giving it up to a total stranger, a trick, for a little bit of money just so you can get by and have your wads of cash. i know girls that make $800 a night. they sure as hell don't like what they're doin, but they do it cuz they need the money. and in this world, money is everything. you know that, as well as we all do. i mean, its like, why go do a normal job when you work your ass off hours every day for two weeks just so you can get a $300 paycheck when you can make all that money in just one night? its like that. the waiting. when you need the money you need it upfront. that's the problem. but where does all that money go? just into your damn hotels and it goes to your damn daddies. you see less than half of what you earn. yeah so what he spends his half on you, wouldn't it feel good to talk half? yeah, that would feel good, wouldn't it feel good to take it all? its like when i'm walkin down that blade, im thinking about this shit...i look good, i know i do, and i know the tricks know i look good...'hey how you doin tonight? me, no im just hanging out you wanna buy me a pack of cigarettes?:" and you get in the car and you have to figure out whether this guy is really a trick or he might be undercover, or vice, or just a plain crazy asshole who'll take you for a ride you never come back from. i been there. there've been cars i've gotten into and you can't open the doors from the inside. and you been in there freakin out tryin to break open the fuckin window cuz being stuck in a trick's car not knowin where you're goin and not knowin whether he 's gonna let you go is a little too much and then when you finally get out its back to the street again just to see if another trick stops for you...its just older guys, all the time. older men. they're the ones that got the money. if they have a car, if they have a family, a job, a house, they can afford to pay you. its $40 for a handjob $60 for a blowjob $100 for sex and $150 for full service. i was out there in my first two hours. i caught two dates and made at least $100 but its like when you're doin that you're just a piece of meat to them, not even a person, cuz you're putting yourself out for this 'job'. its not fun out there. i don't care if its just a job, its not worth it. the best thing that can happen to you is you get arrested and get your life straightened out. that's where i am now. im on house arrest and my daddy is still expecting me to come back. i made $300 out there and i only got 20%, plus most of it went into all those hotels we stayed at. yeah i got folks. that don't mean a damn thing. they only want you cuz you can get them rich. you can bring in the green. that's the only thing you're good for. they don't really care about you. its just their job...
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