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| | | | Date: | Jan 21, 2008 8:16:00 PM | | | Board: | Positive Tip | | | Poster: | ladydiamondz | | | IP Address: | xxx.xxx.xxx.xxx | | | Subject | RE: RE: my LIFE... is it LOVE? | | | | | Prev Thread | Modify Post | Delete Post | Lock Thread |
| | | | Hey thankz for your advise.. I really got into everything u said... I want 2 do better and be able 2 leave him.. But it seems so hard.. He gots something that's holding me on 2him that just gots me stuck 2him.. I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING! Even though HE TREATS ME BADLY.. I WANT 2 BE ABLE 2 DO WAT U ADVICE ME 2 DO BUT I CAN'T.. I KNOW THAT IF I STAY WITH HIM LONGER THINGS ARE GOIN 2 GET WORSE AND MY LIFE HASN'T BEEN GETTING ANY BETTER.. MY DAD THINKS THE WORSE OF ME.. EVERYDAY MY MOM AND MY TIA AND ALL MY FAMILY TALK NASTY BAD STUFF ABOUT ME THAT'S NOT EVEN TRUE! And I hate it and it really hurts me! I feel like if every1 was against me! I MEAN WAT DID I DO 2 MAKE EVERYBODY HATE ME! Tell me god.... Who truly loves me? Why don't u help me leave this man.. Take away my pain.. My tears.. Please.. Help me..
| | wow girl... if i could create a New Icon for this response it would be "Cold Chills"...
I UNDERSTAND EVERY SINGLE WORD & OUNCE OF PAIN U R FEELIN...
u ask about ur life and if UR feelinz 4 ur bf r LOVE...
the answer (even if you pick apart the "reasons" u are drawn to him)...
the answer is YES, YOU LOVE him.
but despite whatever good feelings he has toward you... his primary focus is on pleasing himself, getting what hE wants!and at ur expense... even the expense of your body, mind, emotional stability and health, not to mention your entire future.
you know u deserve to be a man's queen, the apple of his eye... but he is not the one, not at this time at least. but certainly keep lifting him up to the Lord in prayer. just remember that HE has to cooperate with the Lord and that you canNot do it for him, that's when we have to let go and let God.
you Do Love him... just as i love my husband who is once more in jail for assaulting me. he'll get time since there are several charges but after 9 months of hell i now understand that MY Love for him was REAL... but his love 4 mE was a SELFISH (looking out for himself) kind of love.
there are many degrees and kinds of love but the love of genuine loyalty and affection and committment that ALSO makes us emotionally vulnerable...
that type of love is not so easy to come by in its truest form. but it IS out there so don't give up on urself, men or on life. don't judge other men by what one or even several have put u thru. give each a fair chance to prove themself. everyone deserves that. and when you find the One who Loves U tha sAme... i promise the love in you now will be even moRe fullfilled when you and the other person are BOTH pouring your hearts into each other and not just a one sided love in which you get used and hurt. it WILL happen at the right time! sometimes when u r nOt even looking, not even eXpecting, and there he will be, standing n front of U. love will once more catch u by surprise an sweep u off ur feet. save tha best of U 4 tha man who deserves u... as well as u deserving him.
nothing, including pain and poverty, stays tha sAme 4ever... everthing changes so keep ur head up an keep doing positive things n ur life that will push u forward.
find positive ppl w/dreams & goals 2 hang around... even if just 4 tha inspiration... even if you still need your other friends, don't discount new ones that God may enrich your life with.
there is more i would like to share of my experience that perhaps could help u in your decisions... if u want to email me at: christiangangsters7@yahoo.com
i will go into more detail and be a Support System for you in the months to come if YOU want that.
u can also find me on www.myspace.com/christiangangsters
i honest to God feel your love 4 him & i honest to God feel your pain! i understand your questions & need 4 love, direction & 2 be accepted for who YOU are... not what your life looks like to ppl who do not care nor know n/e thing about which they pass judgement upon you... been there, and still going thru.
u know how Moses confronted Pharoah and told him to "let my ppl go"? he was sent in by God to Deliver the ppl being unjustly oppressed... abused...for the Egyptian's own selfish & greedy gain!
well sometimes GOD DELIVERS US when WE make conscience choices to "let some ppl go" fRom our life!
sadly, at times that includes our own family an friends as well as the man.
but do nOt consider the relationship a "mistake"...
nothing in life is ever tRuly a mistake IF YOU LEARN FROM IT.
take the GOOD with you into the future but take the wisdom from the pain u r suffering... with you also into the future. BOTH aRe VitAl....!!!
it is the Positives AND Negatives in our Lives that are meant to bring us BALANCE... !!!
God gave Abraham a new family and friends as well as a wife and children so don't let ppl discourage you. God will suppy the ppl in your life who relate to you and love u for yourself.
hang on to GOD for dear life... He IS the best medicine, best education, best love and acceptance, the best listener and He will never abuse us, lie to us or cheat on us. He is Faithful in ways many canNot yEt imagine.
let GOD start loving on you. i can help teach you how if you would like some help with that. i was NOT taught how, even though i grew up in church, so GOD taught me & i will be happy to encourage you in your journey.
take the pain and allow yourself to feel it so you can begin to work thru it and toward the better life u r wantin.
DON't live 4 n/e other person's opinions except for GOD. let those others be responsible for their own mistakes and refuse to let them bring u down. we aRe ALL equal in God's eyes and NEED 2 understand that NO one is n/e better than another!
you ARE stRonger than U think...
U aRe Definitely stRonger than u Feel..!
so don't let the feeling lie to u and make u think urself to b weak! believe n urself! that's moRe important than what a million ppl think about you!!!!!!!
the Song of Solomon says that "LOVE is as STRONG as death"...
and likewise i have learned that there is tremendous STRENGTH IN LOVE BUT ALSO IN OUR PAIN (a milder form of death).
search 4 that stRength... it's inside you, i promise!
love n Christ,
Paradox
| | Wat do u do wen the one u love treats u BADLy...
Wat do u do WEN ur heart can't take the pain nomore.. Wen u feel like you've tried so much and 4 nothing..wat do u do wen u have ur own family talking lies behind ur back.. I feel like if I have nobody that CARES about me in this LiFE.. The only person that supposobly CARES for me is my bf.. But how can He say he cares about me WEN all he does is bring me down and make me cry.. I want 2 go a different way. I want 2 prove every1 wrong. I want 2 be somebody else. Some1 better. I don't wanna let ppl bring me down so easily. I want 2 be strong enough 2 let him go, I know I deserve better, but I'm scared of letting go, I'm afraid ill fall into depression, I'm afraid of being lonely.. I love him so much!! Even if he treats me worser than a DOG.. And I don know y..
I hate feeling this way towards him..
I wish I wAS strong enough, and I wish I wasn't so WEAK! HIS WORDS HIT ME SO HARD, HIS BODY IS STRONGER THAN MINE, HIS FORCE AGAINST ME I CAN'T CONTROL WEN HE'S MAD.. I HATE IT..
I JUST WISH I DIDN'T LOVE HIM... is it love? |
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