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Why Youll Be Sorry

First, I want to say how sorry I am that you actually CHOSE to enter a gang, when you probably had no need to.

Why? Because my husband has been trying to leave the MS13 gang for six years since they did NOTHING for him. What did he get? Here's a list:
1. He took a prison sentence for his chickenshit homie to be loyal.
2. He was deported to Mexico as a Salvadoran with no papers.
3. He was homeless in Mexico because of that...in Tijuana.
4. Not ONE homie offered to help him after that...so much for loyalty.
5. He can not re enter the U.S. until we pay thousands of dollars and hope that L.A. will expunge all his charges so he can file for a Visa. This may not happen because it's up to them. This means I can't even bring him to my own country and I'm stuck living in Tijuana, crossing the border to work.
6. He's got tattoos he's embarrased of now.
7. He makes $60 on a GOOD day and $5.00 on a bad day and can't get a better job here.
8. We are slaves of the U.S. and Mexican government because of all of this.
9. He took six years to overcome the negativity of a prison sentence.
10. He never attended the funeral of his father in El Salvador. He was doing time then.
11. If my car breaks down when I cross the border, I'm screwed because I have no man to help me once I'm out of Mexico...same with moving things.
12. I cry every night because my life is so sad down here and my only option is to leave a man who's made every effort to change his life and I can't do that. But I want to go home and fear I never will.
13. He regrets his decision every day to join that gang.
14. He can't even move back to El Salvador because of his tattoos, because they have social cleansing squads called the Somba Negra that could murder him on site.

And he's Latino. Why would any white kid join a gang? All it's done for our culture is prove cultural genocide can happen and has.

I've watched more kids deported down here, become addicted to chiva, sell their bodies, catch HIV, cry, miss home, wonder why they ever joined. Not ONE of them were helped by their "homies" once they were here.

Stop being an idiot and go back to your family. You don't have to deal with racism, so you have no excuse. Excuse me if I'm the first to call you a pendejo.

Signed,
The wife of an ex MS13 OG who cries every night.