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i kno i shudnt complain but my heart the pain can no longer take yes i chose this life style went the opposite direction ignored the wrong way signs in my way he the lord put obstacles which knocked me down n few i over came i struggled n i understood why i deserved to be tested for not going down the path destined for me but now i wanna go a different way n the harder i try to pull away the more things change the more i lose the less i gain the further im dragged bak into this dirty game going from point A to B became a destination i cud not reach then he took the one thing most precious to me n it felt like he had tied 100 pound weights to each of my feet with memories of us burned into my brain every dream became a nightmare shakin in tears all id speak was his name the worst of punishments the lord had gave i knew he cud throw anything at me take everything from me material things never phased me but in my mind id aways have my love next to me never thought itd b possible he cud take my heart from me but bondaries did not exist in the games i played neither in wat the lord decides to give n take but why so much pain when in me its place is empty once cold hearted now heartless and now the pain i once caused to others i feel every minute of everyday all i have left is my loves picture in a frame a reminder of wat was sacraficed my motivation to change my ways close to it no but im well on my way now they both look down upon me pray to the lord he will let me live another day not to make it right but to better my ways my love i will not let his death b in vein he did everything he cud to show me the good in life that everyday didnt have to b a rainy day for him lord i will change my ways. BY 5iLENt5tAR |