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Mar
12

Dedication

In a couple of weeks on the calender it would mark the deaths of some close friends and I want to dedicate this song on this you tube link to them. I want to dedicate this to all of you on the gangstyle forums, whoever you are, where ever you are. Most of all to all the people I had to leave behind. I love and miss all of you. It might sound cheesy but my homie said it best ” I say one love, I’ll remember the laughs until we cross paths”

In a couple of weeks on the calender it would mark the deaths of some close friends and I want to dedicate this song on this you tube link to them. I want to dedicate this to all of you on the gangstyle forums, whoever you are, where ever you are. Most of all to all the people I had to leave behind. I love and miss all of you. It might sound cheesy but my homie said it best ” I say one love, I’ll remember the laughs until we cross paths”

Mar
11

Abba Father, I did my best

Abba Father, I did my best by Anghellic


If I could, I’d ask for bigger and better thangs for my hood.

I’d ask God to take away

The many coffins filled

By night and by day.

I’d ask God for wisdom,

Love and a softened heart.

I thank Him before my day

Even began to start .

I’d ask for bigger and better thangs Then walkin alone in the dark.

My path, I cant always see,

Whats lies before me.

God, please come down and wipe my smudgy glasses clean.

I wanna be a mean warrior for Christ,

Fightin the battle along side my Father

Who hears me when my silent

Tears cry outloud.

I wanna stand high on the Platform of

Success. Cryin out” Abba Father,

I did my best.”

Mar
09

Have you ever seen an angel cry?

Have You ever seen a angel cry? by Smokey 062

Have You ever seen a angel cry? Deep in the night, you hear a solemn sigh..because her daddy lied. Lied to her mother, and lied to her, lied about how he was gonna change..it kills me to hear my angel cry, all because her daddy lied. You see she doesnt understand why you keep gettin locked up, all she knows is your not there to tuck her in at night. She cries for you, because she knows, soon, you wont be coming home. Maybe you should listen to what happens when a angel cries..i promise you, you’ll want to run and hide. Too many times, Ive sit and soothed, my precious baby, so young and yet so abused. not by me, or even by you, physically, but your abusing her mentally, because she knows that one of these nights you leave, you’ll never be coming home.Next time, listen to an angel cry..

Mar
08

Sacrifices

One of our most popular and respected writes Twilight is back on the scene and he drop this piece:

As I got out of the shower this morning I looked at myself in the mirror at my tattoos and scars I thought to myself and wondered about the sacrifices I have made in my life to get when I am today. One of my tattoos is the classic “praying hands” Im sure you all seen it or something like it on someone you know. I dont know if you all know the real story behind it but long ago there was a poor family and they had two sons.

The oldest brother had the talent to be a sculptor but the younger brother wanted to be a painter but the family could only send one brother to a school for sculpting or a school for painting. The decided to send older brother to sculpting school, the younger brother was heartbroken. The older brother seeing this decided to take the money and save it and send his younger brother to school. Without his family knowing, instead of going to school everyday the older brother instead got a job working the mines.

Years and years he worked his fingers to the bone saving up every bit of money he could till at last he had saved enough to send him brother to school. by that time the older brothers hands were so rough, and had been broken so many times working in the mines that he could never be a sculpture now. When people ask him why he did what he did he tells them that it was out of love for his brother than compelled him to do it. As a tribute to the love and sacrifice of his brother, the younger painted his very first painting of his brothers hands, frail, old, and broken.

Now your wondering whats the point of this story, well directly across from that tattoo is another one. its Jesus Christ on the cross. I know alot of us have questioned the will of God. I know I have. I know I shook my fist at the sky and and asked why thru tear soaked eyes. I know we all feel or felt that God forsakes us and dont love us or just dont give a damm bout what happens to us but if that were true Jesus would not have died on that cross that day. god so loved the world, THE WORLD for all its sinners, for all the ugliness and the things we do to ourselves and each other. he gave his only son to die for you, for us….no matter who you are, real, fake, lost and alone. Always remember that God loves you. He will never forsake you no matter what you’ve done, all you have to do is ask and he will forgive you. God’s love is awesome….

Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous;
love does not brag and is not arrogant,
does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own,
is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails 1 Corinthians 13:4

Mar
03

LET MY LIFE GO DOWN

I GOT INTO ALL OF THIS CUZ OF THE CHILDHOOD I HAD. I GREW UP THINKIN I WAS F*CKED UP IN THE HEAD. WAS NEVER CLOSE WITH MY PARENTS, IN FACT I HATED THEM N I WAS ONLY A LIL KID. HAD A SH*TLOAD OF RESPONSIBILITIES WHEN I WAS LIL, NEVER GOT TO BE A F*CKEN KID HAD TO BE AN ADULT N TAKE CARE OF MY BROTHER N SISTER. I LIVED IN CALIFORNIA, GANG-BANGIN IS LIKE THE BIGGEST THING WHERE I USED TO LIVE. AS SOON AS I GOT TO 5TH GRADE I WENT WILD. MY PARENTS COULDNT CONTROL ME. IT WAS BOMB CUZ I FINALLY WAS DOIN THE STUFF I WANTED TO…GETTIN HIGH& DRINKIN. I WOULD SLEEP AT MY GRAMAS N WOULDNT GO HOME FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS OR ONE DAY A WEEK. SCHOOL GRADES SUCKED. THEN MY PARENTS REALIZED THE SH*T I WAS GETTIN INTO… THEY’D THROW AWAY EVERY BANDANA THEY’D FIND AND WOULD TALK DOWN ON ME. IT DIDNT STOP ME. **** 1 WAS ALREADY DOWN WIT A GANG. BUT THEY WANTED TO MOVE, IT WAS EITHER THAT OR MILTARY SCHOOL. THEY THOUGHT IT WOULD HELP BUT COME ON THERES GANGS EVERYWHERE. I DIDNT TELL MY HOMIES…I WAS SCARED. WE MOVED TO A STUPID **** A** STATE INTO A LIL TOWN. THEY OPENED UP THERE OWN PLACE N ONCE AGAIN I WAS ALONE ALL DAY, SO I’D JUST GET HIGH OFF ANYTHING AT THAT POINT. I STARTED MAKIN FRIENDS. I STARTED FIGHTIN EVERYONE TO GAIN RESPECT. IM GOING TO BE 16 AND NOW IM PREGNANT N MY VATO IS A GANG-BANGER TOO. IM WORRIED ALL THE TIME HE’S G0NA GET SHOT OR LOCKED UP. I REALLY WISH NOW THAT WE WEREN’T CAUGHT UP IN ALL THIS SH*T. I CARE BOUT THIS BABY AND IM AFRAID TO GO OUT AND SINCE I HAVE SO MANY RIVALS THAT THEY’LL JUMP ME AND I’LL LOOSE MY BABY. CUZ LETS FACE IT THEY AREN’T GONA GIVE A **** IF YOUR PREG0 0R N0T… THEY JUS WANT REVENGE. WE HAVE TO WATCH OUR BACKS ALOT AND DONT TRUST NO-ONE. WE ARE CAREFUL WHEN WE GO PLACES WITH PEOPLE WE DONT KNOW… JUST IN CASE THEIR HOMIES WITH A RIVAL. ITS STUPID, I LAY IN BED ALL NIGHT SOMETIMES THINKING ABOUT THE LIFE WE ARE GONA HAVE IF WE STAY HERE… WHAT IF WE GET SHOT SOME DAY AND THEN WHO’S GONA BE HERE FOR MY KID. I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT MY LIFE IN THE FUTURE WHEN I GOT INTO THIS ALL. NOW I UNDERSTAND WHAT MY FAMILY MEANT WHEN THEY SAID I’D REGRET IT. AS FOR HOMIES IN THE GANG, F*CK THEM THE DAY YOU GET LOCKED UP, THEIR ALL THREATENING YOU NOT TO SNITCH OR ELSE. AND WHEN YOU WANA GET OUT THEY WANT TO BEAT YOU AND KILL YOU, AND THEY SAID THEY WERE HOMIES. F*UCK HOMIES THEIR ALL FAKE, TRUST NO-ONE. ITS ALL A BIG LIE ALL THIS GANG SH*T. YOU START OUT THINKING ITS A GAME AND YOU CAN QUIT WHEN YOU GET TIRED BUT NAW… IT BECOMES THE OWNER OF YOUR LIFE AND ITS HELLA HARD TO GAIN CONTROL BACK…

IM STILL TRYING AND I DONT THINK I’LL BE ABLE TO MAKE IT THAT LONG UNLESS I MOVE AWAY AGAIN, BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE MY BABY GROW UP.

ALL OF YOU WHO THINK ITS COOL, THINK TWICE CUZ WHAT SEEMS TO BE FUN FOR A WHILE CAN TURN INTO YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE LATER ON.

LIKE ME, I DREAM I COULD JUST RUN AWAY WITH MY KID& VATO… BUT I WAKE UP AND SEE THAT THIS NIGHTMARE I GOT MYSELF INTO IS REALITY …AND IT’S MY LIFE.

By D0LL13z

Feb
28

Change by Twilight: How to change from being a gang banger.

Nothing is easy when it comes to change. “vida loca”
is not just about gangbanging its about what you love
starts changing. I been where you been and sometimes
it seems I never left. I felt hopeless. I felt great
heartache and sadness but in order for me to get where
I am today I had to sit and look at my life, I mean
take a real hard look at myself and where I was going
and ask myself “is this how I want to live all my
life?” In order for me to change for the better I
really had to want to change. Not just say out loud to
myself or my friends that “hey yeah I wanna change” I
had to really believe it and want it. I also had to
leave a lot of people behind too, change my playground.
No one said it was easy, there is no “how to” book for
any of us. You just got to want it and believe that
you are someone and that life no matter how hard it
may get is worth living and fighting for. You got to
understand that in order for you to live your dreams,
nightmares will happen, life at times might hit you in
the face with something hard. they go hand in hand. No
matter what though dont stop trying to make your life
better for you and yours. Never give up the good
fight. If you need someone to talk to just ask.

Read Twilight’s story here

Feb
25

Why do Black Men hate Black Men? Why do black Men kill Black Men?

These are not questions based on or centered in the rhetorical,

But rather questions that demand that “we” investigate the historical,

Whilst questioning the pathological as well as the psychological!

Questions of logic that demand our investigation to be thorough and logical!

Why do Black Men hate Black Men?

Why do black Men kill Black Men?

Could it be…..

That the psychological damage to your African centered psyche,

Caused by the European centered-AmeriKKKan chattel slavery,

Be the root cause of your hostility towards all things Black and me,

A psyche that now demands that you now despise me, hate me and kill me?

Have you truly investigated the pathology,

Of a Eurocentric-AmeriKKKan centered psychology?

Or have you simply been a victim of your oppressors’ duplicity,

Succumbing to your oppressors’ program of propagandized psychology?

What is the pathology or Eurocentric-AmeriKKKan centered Psychology?

Why do Black Men hate Black Men?

Why do black Men kill Black Men?

For days and days you sit being brainwashed by psychotic, deadly, cathode rays!

Locked in jail, without bail, being psychologically programmed to completely fail!

Or you sit home alone, insulated, isolated, being psychologically miseduKKKated!

Psychologically inundated, manipulated, miseduKKKated, segregated and isolated!

And they report…

“Upon investigation we have found the manifestation,

Of an innate psychological gene of Black criminalization!”

Which is nothing more than a plan of racial justification,

For the unjust incarceration and genocidal termination,

Of every Black Man in this racist Nation!

Can’t you see that the mythology of their psychology is affecting our psychology?

Can’t you see that the mythology of their pathology is affecting our pathology?

Can’t you see that the mythology of their anthropology is affecting our morphology?

What is the true racial pathology of Eurocentric-AmeriKKKan centered Psychology?

Why do Black Men hate Black Men?

Why do black Men kill Black Men?

“Mustafa Rasul Al-Amin” (031001)

Feb
15

Back to prison on a mission

Back to Prison on a Mission

Six former wards came back to the California Youth Authority (CYA) earlier
this month. This time they volunteered to return. They were on a mission to
deliver a message to the wards at N.A. Chaderjian Youth Correctional
Facility, which houses California’s most violent youth offenders ages 18-24.
The diverse panel of ex-convicts purposefully stepped through the fences of
Chaderjian as law-abiding citizens. They each wore visitor’s passes clipped
on their shirts and security alarms attached to their belts for their safety
in the event that a riot “kicked off”.

Once inside the razor wired fence, I observed the former wards, some who
were once rival gang enemies, hugging, exchanging phone numbers and sharing
personal family photos with each other. Meanwhile, a large group of heavily
guarded and structured wards were being escorted on to the dim, sky lit,
concrete gym floor. The CYA alumni’s immediately began greeting the wards
with warm smiles and hand shakes. Once seated, Chaplain Carlton McAllister,
a CYA alumnus, introduced the panel and offered a faith filled prayer and a
joyful song of praise. As I scanned the audience, I observed many of the
wards staring at the panel speakers during the song, appearing to wonder
what the panel members were about and what they had come to say.

“You need to stop being punks, anyone can run behind a gang, but it takes a
real man to live for Christ and to stand alone.” A quiet hush fell over the
gymnasium. You could have heard a prison-made cuff-key drop, as Levon Davis,
now also known as Dr. Levon Davis shot these words toward wards with a force
that captured their attention. Dr. Davis, a once hardened criminal convicted
for a double murder stood before the audience of offenders a transformed man
who presented a bold, thought provoking, and inspirational message. “If it
comes down to you and your friends, your friends are going to snitch you
off. They ain’t going to take the blame for you,” Davis said confidently and
boldly. Some of the audience members snickered, while others nodded their
heads in agreement. “Why hold loyalty to someone who is not going to be
loyal to you? When it comes down to it, the only thing that is really
stable, that will get behind you, is God. Christ is the Answer.” Davis spoke
these words with conviction and from experience.

Davis has had experiences that have now distinguished him from his past life
style and previous mistakes. He has excelled since his release almost 10
years ago from the CYA and is a rehabilitated man, a scholar in his own
right. Davis earned his PhD in counseling, is president and founder of
Blessed Faith Bible College, which is accredited to the doctorate degree, he
owns and operates a Christian music production company, and if that isn’t
enough, he is a devoted husband and pastor of Blesses Faith church in
Sacramento, California. He has come a long way from the cellblocks he was
confined to over 10 years ago and the reality of his life is that his new
beginning was initiated behind the bars of the CYA. Davis told the audience
that he took advantage of every vocational program offered to him at the CYA
and in addition, he enrolled in a correspondence college while serving his
sentence. Davis credits the CYA and his strong faith in God for his
successful transition into society. The CYA provided him with the resources
and opportunities to succeed, and it took his initiative and commitment to
turn those opportunities into reality.

Another success story and former guest of the CYA was Noel Patillo, son of
celebrity gospel artist, Leon Patillo. This former ward also had a word for
the wards, which he communicated, in part, through rap. His artistic flavor
and talent got the spirit moving throughout the gymnasium, and the audience
was tapping their feet and bobbing their heads. His words were profound and
chillingly descriptive. “My parents were separated, my dad was always on the
road, and mom was a dope dealer. I grew up in a dope house, said Patillo.
In a private interview he told me that his dad always told him that he
needed to “get it right because God had something for him.

Patillo, a former Bay Area gang member who was incarcerated for attempted
murder believed his path on the straight and narrow came in a round about
way. “God kind of tricked me in to getting saved, said Patillo. He
confessed that initially his interest in going to church was more so an
interest in the opportunity to see the women who would occasionally
volunteer in the institutional chapel service rather than an interest in
God. This passionate interest eventually led to Patillo’s exposure to a man
from an outreach ministry who began to speak the Word into his life. Patillo
stated that the man ministered the Gospel of Jesus Christ to him for three
consecutive days, and on the third day, the man said the sinner’s prayer
with him. “I felt a change at that moment. I no longer wanted to fight,
because I was always mad. I was angry, because I was locked up, because I
took a rap for my cousin. Even though I accepted Christ in my heart, I was
still riding with the Bay Area, but my heart wasn’t in it. I finally got
some courage, and I just told them I wasn’t ridin’ no more. I was going to
do my program and take care of my kids.

After his amazing transformation, another miracle took place in Patillo’s
life, the miracle of his mother receiving Christ and him being the person to
lead her through the prayer of salvation. “She was up visiting and God had
been talking to me for a couple of months about this new life he gave me,
and I said okay. That week she came up there, I brought my Bible with me,
and I took her to Romans 10:9 – If you confess with your mouth the Lord
Jesus and believe in your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead you will
be saved. This was someone who taught me the ways of the street, and here I
was talking to her about Jesus. Then she just opened up her heart and
started crying. I said the sinner’s prayer with her, and she accepted
Christ. She started going to church after that. Behind bars Patillo had
received freedom from his physical and mental shackles and now he shared the
gift of freedom through Christ with his mother.

After his release in May of 1995, Patillo earned his Associate of Arts
Degree in Computer Technology. He is currently working toward his Bachelor
of Arts Degree in Computer Technology. He is a youth pastor at True Vine
Ministries in West Oakland, and he operates and owns a legal broker
business. He has accomplished much despite his shaded past, and the CYA was
where his miraculous transformation began.

Vanna In of Cambodia appeared before the wards looking like a preppy college
student; however, his former lifestyle was anything but that of a college
student. “I had no problem going to make a name for myself, or putting a gun
to somebody’s head to rob them, said In. He told me that he wanted to join
the largest and worst gang. “If I was going to join a gang, I wanted to do
it right. I wanted to join the most ruthless one. In a private interview he
disclosed that he came from a verbally and physically abusive home and that
he was driven by his anger and the need to feel accepted at any cost, and at
anyone else’s cost. He went on to tell me about his amazing conversion while
awaiting trial for a gang related murder.

“When I was in jail in ‘94, I started reading books by Chaplain Ray, who had
all these books of inmates whom had given their lives to God. I was more
interested in the stories than what God had done in their lives. I was
reading the books just to kill the time. Then I was reading this one book
called “Al Capone the Devils Driver and in that book before each chapter
there was a verse, and the verse that captured my heart was John 15:16 – For
you did not choose me, but I chose you; I said what? Why would God call me
after all the things I have done. I heard a soft voice that said, “Give your
life to God and as soon as I heard that, I closed the book. Then I started
reading the book again, the voice said the same thing again, “Give your life
to God, but this time I said, okay. God you must be real, because you came
to me a second time. So I woke up one of the brothers that use to witness to
me and asked him to pray for me. It was about 2:30 in the morning. I use to
worship a statue. Buddha never taught that we can be loved and forgiven and
that God wanted to have a relationship with us. God gave me hope. When you
have hope in God, no matter what you go through, you know your going to make
it.

After In’s spiritual awakening, he stated that he began reading the Bible
daily and while incarcerated at the CYA he came across a young preacher
named Levon Davis. “In January of 1995, I went to a Chapel service, I said
wow! Look at this guy preach, and he’s an inmate, so I said, if God can use
him, God can use me. What a realization for this young man that God could
use him for good. This revolutionary thought transformed his mind and
ultimately his life.

I asked In what advice he would give to inmates to help them avoid the
pitfalls of the streets once released? In said, “Separate yourself from the
negative influences. What I learned from Y.A. was very good. I learned that
insanity is doing the same thing expecting different results. In’s
achievements are commendable and the lessons he learned at the CYA were
instrumental in helping him to break the vicious cycle of negative behavior
in his life. The CYA provided the resources and the opportunity for positive
change, and the hope he discovered in God gave him the will power and
determination to follow through.

Joshua Ortega repeatedly stated in his high-powered message, “God is good!
He said, “I read the stories in the Bible and it seemed like Jesus was a
pretty good guy, as he gave a joyful chuckle. Ortega gave his life to
Christ after picking up a Bible while incarcerated. He stated that he
experienced joy at the CYA although his sentence was 35 years to life. He
stated that the joy he experienced upon giving his life to Christ was
equivalent to the joy that he now experiences after having his sentence
miraculously modified by the court. He is now enjoying his freedom in
society, has a great job, and is an active member in his church. Ortega
commanded the floor with his presentation.

Richard Chandler took the floor and reminded his captive audience to look at
the big picture. Chandler, a former gang member, spent 12 years of his life
in the CYA and State Prison. He stressed the importance of family and
considering how a person’s actions affect their loved ones and everyone
around them. It was a message that emphasized a principle that many CYA
counselors work to teach wards on a daily basis, accountability.

Shakir Villalobos, a former gang member from East Los Angeles, spent seven
years in the CYA for a gang related murder. At age 12 Villalobos was jumped
in to his neighborhood gang. “I was looking to find my identity, I was doing
anything for their approval, stated Villalobos. “If there is something on
the outside that you’re not on the inside, then you’re on no one’s side.

Villalobos was released from the CYA seven years ago and has been happily
married for the past 4 years. He is the father of two beautiful daughters
and is gainfully employed as a construction worker. He credits his success
to the mentoring that he received at the CYA from Darwin Benjamin, a former
Youth Correctional Counselor (YCC), and Chaplain Carlton McAllister.
Villalobos stated that he still maintains a close friendship with his two
mentors and remains accountable to them. He laughed as he told me how
Benjamin calls him from time to time to ask him how his marriage is doing.
He stated that he responds by saying, “Fine, and then Benjamin will ask to
speak with his wife.

Villalobos continued by sharing an analogy he received from Darwin that
helped him explained how he connected with Christ and how he was able to
view his relationship with Christ. “We all know how to dance for the
neighborhood. When Jesus comes up to you, he doesn’t want you to stop
dancing, he just wants you to change partners. When I heard that from
Darwin, it just clicked in my mind, there is no difference. I wanted to
switch my life to Jesus.

There was one powerful testimony after another being shared with the wards
at the CYA, and they cheered and applauded each speaker enthusiastically. At
the end of the program, they all lined up and prepared to leave the
gymnasium in an orderly fashion. I was able to witness something powerful
from the looking glass of a photojournalist, which was very different. I was
fully equipped with a duty belt as a Youth Correctional Counselor and
prepared to respond to any occurrence, but I experienced a perspective from
behind the lens of my camera that was gratifying and hopeful. I perceived
that some of the gang tension had dissipated; many of the wards were leaving
with smiles and their faces appeared to be illuminated with hope rather than
snarling or shouting obscenities at their known rivals. They stood in line
to leave the gymnasium and extended respect to the panel members by shaking
their hands. From my perspective, some mental shackles were broken and some
potential bridges were being constructed even if only within the minds of
the wards. It was good to know that the wisdom of the panel had been
imparted to these young men.

All of the panel members currently service their communities through
outreach programs within their churches. Vanna In also works as a counselor
at a non-profit organization helping high-risk youth obtain employment. “We
are looking for guys that want to change, but can’t find a job because of
their lack of skill, education, and criminal history. All the speakers left
their contact information for the wards, for guidance and assistance.
Chaplain Carlton McAllister and N.A. Chaderjian Gang Coordinators, Don
Nickerson and Bob Galano orchestrated this All-Star, successful event. They
received heartfelt accolades from some of the panel members who expressed
their appreciation for their encouragement and mentorship during their
incarcerations.

McAllister, Nickerson, Galano and a team of others whom helped host the
event, are optimistic about the future of the wards at the CYA. A large part
of this optimism can be attributed to the new administration at N.A.
Chaderjian. The institution has been plagued with gang violence since it
opened in 1991. The administration’s approval of the organizer’s request to
use former inmates as an arsenal to be deployed against the on-going
campaign against gang violence has pioneered the way for the implementation
of progressive and innovative programs at N.A. Chaderjian. The former
inmates must meet certain criteria to participate in the program, including
but not limited to being law-abiding citizens and possessing a willingness
to pour back into an institution that was instrumental in their personal
success.

Nickerson shared his thoughts about the success of the event. “Chaplain
McAllister gathered an excellent group of young men to speak to our ward
population. Their personal testimonies and the opportunity to make real
change was inspiring. I have to believe they planted seeds in the hearts of
the young men who attended the assembly. It is my hope that we can have
future events that challenge our wards to become men of character and
integrity.

It appears that the program had a positive impact, because the percentage of
incidence of gang violence in the institution has decreased as compared to
past years and many gang members are severing their gang ties.

Prayer of Salvation:

Lord Jesus Christ, I believe you died on the cross for my sins and rose
again from the dead. You redeemed me by your blood and I belong to you, and
I want to live for you. I confess all my sins-known and unknown-I’m sorry
for them all. I renounce them all. I forgive all others, as I want you to
forgive me. Forgive me now and cleanse me with your blood. I thank you for
the blood of Jesus Christ, which cleanses me now from all sin. And I come to
you now as my deliverer. You know my special needs-the thing that binds,
that torments, that defiles: that evil spirit, that unclean spirit-I claim
the promise of your word. “Whosoever that calleth on the name of Lord shall
be delivered. I call upon you now. In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ,
deliver me and set me free. Satan, I renounce you and all your works. I
loose myself from you, in the name of Jesus, and I command you to leave me
right now, in Jesus’ name. Amen.

By Rayford L. Johnson
Author of “Thug Mentality Exposed”
website: http://www.thugexposed.com

Feb
14

Life of a girl in a gang

Ok, first off, the whole reason I joined up on this site is cause I like what is says. Tryin to get ppl up off the streets, and turn their lives around before
its too late. I know this first hand. Not only did I jus mess up my own life, but I lost my daughter when she was 1 and a half yrs. old.

Then my husband went for his revenge, and you know the rest I lost him too. I’ve lost countless numbers of homeboys, and homegirls, and more family members to the streets also. What is this? The gang life is not what its cracked up to be. And Ive BEEN THERE, and know what its like. For anyone that has ever lost a child to the gang life, I send my love and respects to you, and also a prayer that you’re ok,

Please dont think it ‘couldnt, or wont happen to you’ cause thats so wrong. People think it takes strength and you have to be strong to be in a
gang, but it takes even more strength, and proves that your even stronger if you have the strength to get OUT. Before countless homies, your children, your
vato, somone else in your familia, or maybe even YOU gets injured or even killed by the gang life.

Just realize that its not worth it.

By Lili or Lil Angel

Feb
13

Prison Boy

This one from our archives

PRISON BOY CAME HOME ONE DAY TO FIND HIS TRUE LOVE HAD GONE AWAY.
WHEN HE ASKED WHY,WITH THESE WORDS SHE DID REPLY.
IF YOU WOULD HAVE LED A DECENT LIFE I GLADLY WOULD HAVE BEEN YOUR WIFE,
BUT SINCE YOU LED A LIFE OF CRIME PRISON BOY GO DO YOUR TIME.
PRISON BOY LAY DEAD THE NEXT DAY.
IN A LETTER HE DID SAY.
DIG MY GRAVE AND DIG IT DEEP,LAY ROSE UPON MY FEET AND ON MY CHEST A TURTLE DOVE.
TO SHOW THE WORLD I DIED FOR LOVE SO ALL YOU LADIES BEAR IN MIND
A PRISON BOY IS HARD TO FIND,SO WHEN YOU FIND HIM LOVE HIM TRUE
A PRISON BOY WOULD DIE FOR YOU
BY JESTER